From mental disorder to professional cyclist
Welcome to my website! I have been looking so much forward to reveal it and my first blog will be a short introduction to my story. For those who do not know me well, my name is Fie Østerby and I am a danish professional cyclist living in Spain. If someone told me 5 years ago that I would stand here, I would have laughed and said that ‘you must be crazy’!!
But here I am and sometimes I have to pinch myself in the arm to understand that it is reality.
It has been a long journey to get here, and it all started when I was finishing high school in 2011. The last year of high school I was having a hard time and I often sat in the toilet crying and hiding from the world and sometimes I even packed my stuff and left the classroom in the middle of a lecture, completely dissolved by crying. I didn’t know what was wrong and at this time I was very judgemental about mental disorders, so I was just telling myself to pull myself together. Now I understand that being so hard on myself just made it worse.
One day reality hit me for real! I was hit by an anxiety attack while working in a supermarket a few weeks before I graduated high school. I clearly remember this day – I sat behind the counter serving customers, while shaking all over my body and dissolved with tears.
That moment marks the 8 year long struggle with a mental disorder.
It gave me a lot of challenges in my life. I couldn’t take care of a job, and inside my head everything was chaotic, which made my pattern of behavior out of control and I couldn’t socialize with other people.
In 2012 I was very lucky to be introduced to cycling, as I was participating in a municipal activation project for young people who wasn’t able to take care of a job. When riding my bike I found peace and I started to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Riding my bike has become my way back to life and has brought me to where I am today.
My purpose with this website is also to help break the taboo and prejudices of mental disorders. Unfortunately I still meet people who have a lot of prejudices about mental disorders and I understand why so many people find it so difficult to understand. Because it’s not like a broken arm or leg that is very obvious to see. It’s a broken soul.
I am looking forward to share more of my journey with you and I hope to inspire other people to see that there is a spot for everyone in this world.
Take a look around and feel free to contact me and comment on my blogs. I hope you like it – I am very excited about this and I owe I BIG THANK YOU to Katarina, who made this website and completely understood how I wanted it to be! 🙏🏼
The content of this website will be a mix of good reading and inspiration for a healthier lifestyle based on my own experiences as a professional cyclist and creativity in the kitchen with my own healthy recipes.